I feel very odd right now, I’m quite tired, having chills a little, despite being wrapped up in my pashmina and huddling next to my comp.
I’ve just finished watching Firefly, and I’m really missing Andy and Alex and Kat right now. I love them all very much, the key players in my life, despite the fact that Alex managed to gain me overnight. Maybe it’s cuz I’m homealone right now, but I doubt – it the show is infectious.
I was having doubts about Andy and I, the whole getting married thing, but I realised, I love him so very much, it makes me want to cry [she said as the keyboard dissapred in a blur of tears]. And as for the other two, what I have with kat is like the deepest love that two straight girls can have for each other, and it’s so very nice. Alex, now Alex is an enigma smotherd in chocolate wrapped in a mans body. I haven’t know him for very long and already I trust him implicitly, and that is a phenominal thing for me [either that, or I'm loosing my touch]. Maybe it’s cuz he’s that much older than me, presents me with another brother.
I realised that I never tell these people how mcuh they mean to me, and thats bad. I belive that I could get hit by a bus tomorrow, and it would pain me so much if I went without them ever know how much I care. Oh and Dan, I forgot Dan *slaps forhead*. Silent, slightly awkward, looks damn good in a suit: Dan, and so very gentlemanly.
Ya know, its funny, but if I concentrate hard enough, I can pull their presences to me – the unique way they feel, smell sense, the same way I can pull a smell to me. *shuts her eyes* Rosmary and Lavender, and 5 very happy people all sitting in the sun; It’s bliss.
If any of you are reading this, I want you to know, I love you all very much, and I promise that if you never leave me, then I will never leave you. Not untill we’re a hundred, and all is said and done.
Love and kisses.
☮&♥
