Ramblings of a Disorientated Mind

Bleh. Well, I went into Poole today to sort my card fraud thing out only to discover that they can’t report it as it’s got to be done my telephone, and the telephone place is shut on a sat But the nice bank man gave me the number, as well as his, incase I had any problems [not his home number you perverts [though he did have nice hand-writing...]]
And then, after having coffee and chips in BK, I wandered amlessly for about an hour before coming home. Wyrd thing was, that as I was getting on the bus, I kept feeling like I should go to Andy’s even though I’d decided differently. Then as the bus pulled away, and got closer to home, I felt like there was some kind of eleastic string pulling at me, and I just wanted to cry.

I’m blaming it on stupid hormones I think. Which reminds me. I still haven’t come on, almost a week asfter I stopped taking the pill. I know i’ll hate it when it comes, but I’d rather have it come and hate it, than have it not come and worry and stress more.

Oh yeah, and why can’t someone come up with a device that records thought brain-waves in digital so you can feed it into your comp and have it ‘translate’. That would be really cool, and useful.

Something else I noticed, the top and jumper I’m wearing to day don’t seem to fit right – they won’t cover the inch between the bottom of the top and the top of my trousers. Either they are shrinking or my boobs are getting bigger…

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whenever I am bored/ there is nothing on TV, and I cannot think of anything to do, I update my blog?

I’m a sad, sad person….

Cool thing though: Garnier is bringing out a ‘manga’ styling gel [though, obviously their website dep. don't know about it yet...]

And another thing: OMG! I finaly found an american accent I like. Mr Rober Downy Jnr.’s accent is very very cool, and possibly even sexy. Apparently he’s from Nu Yawk, where I thought the accent was supposed to be uber nasal and icky. This is rich coming from the girl who [thought she] only likes english, dorset [aka, normal] or welsh.

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So, I haven’t posted for… ooh 4 days, and I’m sure you’re all just ding to know what’s up with me?

Well, most of the bad stuff can be found in this rant. A few things to add to that: My co-worker left today, and as well as not getting to say good bye properly, I have a really horrible panicky feeling in my gut. Of course that could just be my period coming/ not coming on…
I’ve decided this GMing lark is far to hard for me to do [after reading the daunting description in the Changling book. I guess the problem with that is that it doesn't seem to inspire me. Maybe if I could have a pre-written game to run it would make it easier], which I know will really dissapoint Andy, but then, I seem to be nothing but dissapointments just lately, so I guess it’s negatable. Not that he’s been doing much either; he seems to always be playing WoW, which I hate. I dislike the game and I dislike how obsessing he is. It’s just stupid.

In good news, I guess, I applied to The College to be assistant librarain, and saturday I’m going to cancel my debit card so the asshole which is takeing money out via e-buyer will stop. And I’m never using their site again.
Also, I’ve had a lot of people joining my fanlisting for Spacefem.com, taking the total to 24, which I like.

Other than that things have been pretty really lame.

There ya go.

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Before I start on what I did yesterday, I just want to say a few things:
- Happy birthday Sona *hugs*
- My work sucks, and my co-worker sucks. I’ve been at this job three weeks, only two of which where learning how to do this one thing, and my co-worker has said, now I’m here, he’s quitting. He leaves on Thursday. I hate this and am very scared
- EBuyer.com customer support fucking sucks. I want my goddamnfucking money!

Now that over, I can tell y’all what a cool day I had yesterday

So, I wanted to get out and go some place, you recall. So yesterday Andy and I went to Brockenhurst. And we got ourselves lost

This map, courtesy of MultiMap, should help you understand where we went. The rout we followed is marked out on bright blue dots for your dotty pleasure.

After leaving the train station, Andy said he would try to take me to the pond near where his aunt use to live. We struck out east and south down some quite lane to avoid walking along the main road. This lane, according to the map, runs around the edge of Brockenhurst Park, and we saw loads of rabbits. It was very quite and idyllic. Coming to the end of this lane, we crossed the main road to another lane, almost getting ourselves run over [Thanks Andy ] Along this lane, not quite as quiet as the first, we saw loads of horses, mainly show horses, not Forest Ponies. On coming to the end of this lane, we saw a sign saying we were a mile out from the village, so we decided to head back, going in the direction of the sign. This lead us along a lane in the forest proper, however it only lead us back to the main road, which we didn’t want to walk along, so we headed south-west onto the moors.
Almost as soon as we stepped onto a track bordered by high gorse, all road noise was blocked out, and only the sound of the wind could be heard. As we wandered we saw, about 2 miles away, or so, a tower, and decided it was most likely a mobile phone mast. I have subsequently found out that it’s actually a folly, which is used occasionally as a ‘phone mast. Then we wandered onto a bit of ground that had been burnt for regeneration, and saw our first Pony of the day. She was quite a mystical looking thing – all white in amongst the blackened gorse

After we emerged from the heath we followed another road down, over a bridge [where we were savaged by brambles], down the road a bit more and into civilisation. We stopped opposite a garage on a green bit to have lunch, and were stared at by the second Pony of the day.

After lunch we headed into Brockenhurst village, and I was intending to have a cup of tea, but I had no cash, and all the tea shops seemed to be full. It’s a sweet wee place, but not much of interest shop-wise. They all seemed to be food places, or estate agents. We had fun watching some people on bikes go through the ford though

So then we wandered back down to find the station, but after finding it, the time was only 1300h ish, so we wandered back down a different road to the one we came up, and followed it down past the collage and a green, then wandered down some more lanes past cottages and to another ford that was terribly pretty, with sun dappling on the water So after this brief repose we carried on, past a house called ‘Aston Villa’, and to another stretch of moor.

I have discovered something very interesting about my beloved – he has a fondness for horses. I don’t know why, but I never would have thought it of him, but it’s kinda cute Anyway we wandered about, trying to talk to horses, when I decided it would be nice to site down for a bit. So I found a quite, secluded and sheltered spot, and we spread out coats out and sat and kissed and cuddled and talked and laughed and… disturbed the wildlife It was restful, and peaceful, and just… nice to sit in the sun. I think I must be cold blooded – I love snoozing in the sun But yeah, it was very nice Though after a while the sun went behind some very large clouds and I started getting chilly so we left, saying next time, not only would we take a bigger bag, but a rug as well [I got a damp arse ]

We then retraced out steps back to civilisation, and I did want to go into one of the tea shops for a last cup of tea, but Andy didn’t want to, so we headed back to the train station. Fortunately we didn’t have to wait too long for a train back.

So that was our day, and a very good day it was too

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ya know, there are moments I have when I’m with my friends that I never blog about. I really should, becuase they are moments of pure and infitite bliss. Happy moments filled with laughter and comradship and really terrible puns, sad moments filled with completive silences and embraces and sometimes tears. But I love all these moments, they make me feel so wonderful, and I just realised, I never tell these wonderful people how much I care. Oh I’m sure they know, but I never say it enough.

So, Andy, Kitty, Alex, Dan, Monkey, Major, Luke, Greg, Jade – You are all very special people, and I love you all very very much.

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… A shame I had to spend it at work.

Really though, it’s been a wonderful day; sun is shineing, birds are twittering tunefully, there are nice smells on the breeze, and I saw a bird of pery. I don’t really know what it was, since I was inside eating luch at the time, but it seemed to have golden brown wings and dark pinions. It was probably a buzzard, since that’s the most common round here.

I love where I live, I really do. I don’t think I want to be any where else in the world. I mean, sure I’d like to travel and see other places, but I don’t want to live anywhere else. Dorset’s just so… perfect. I have everything I could ever want here; History, culture, sea, countryside.

Dorset’s fantastic. Everyone should live here

That said, now spring is here, the winter cobwebs are blowing away and the fresh season is making me fidgety. I just don’t know what to do about. My current situation of little money, no personal transport and lack of a person to do stuff with [What, you think andy would want to go someplace? How sorely mistaken thou art] makes scrating this itch damn nigh impossible. Suggestions greatfully recived.

Maybe I should take the train someplace this weekend? Weymouth or Southamptoon. That would be nice.

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I want a t-shirt that says ‘I see stupid people’…

See the darkly hot chick in this comic? See what she is wearing? Couldn’t kitty look soo good in that?
[It's not that I'm attracted to my best mate. [Well, I am, but I'm not. [I don't like making sense; it's boring. Where was I?]] It’s more that I appriciate her exsquisit form and I understand how her better half thinks ]

Why do people shut their sites while they are re-doing layouts, or not updating? It seems very silly. Are these people incabable of re-doing a site on there home machine before uploading it? Or if they use php, can they not just install a local server using apache [which is what I did]? Silly people.

I really need a better place to put my random thoughts than constantly editing this post.

Why do american actors not have accents? If you watch something with yanks in, like the news, they all have accents, but the tv shows that get sent over never have amercian accented actors.

Also, is it possibly to catch a hot flush from a menapausel woman?

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