So, since I have been deemed deprived in the area of film viewage, I want y’all to give me a list of your top ten films of all time/space.

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I want to write a post about how I feel so crap, how I’ve been so ill without actually being sick, how I’ve been so run-down and uninspired and such… but I just can’t get the energy to even do that However, when it get to the stage that people you know only to smile at come up to you and say, ‘are you okay? you look a little pale’ and you’ve gotten so tired that you don’t deny it any more, that mes amie, is when Something is offically Wrong. I have a docs appointment tomorrow, not that I think there is anything that can done…

Sigh

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I think I’m attractive too.

[Just - lets sort out the excesive facial hair and the pores, okay?]

‘Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Damn I sure look fine,
I can’t blame those horny boys,
I would make me mine’
- R.E.S.P.E.C.T, P!nk

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I cried today. About an hour and a half. I put the music up real loud so dad couldn’t hear. I was crying so hard and bugging one of my bigger teddy bears. What was I crying about? Leaving my bed room behind. I’ve not even seen the other house yet.

How stupid is that?

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So, am I sticking to my New Year’s Resolutions?

Yes, I am, for the most part. Except for tuesday [dnd night], I managed to go to bed early and brush my teeth. My body is slowly getting use to the idea that 2230 means sleep time. I’ve not been eating much, and I’m not eating/ drinking anything I shouldn’t do [look at me having will power ]. I’m trying to forswear coffee again and go back to green tea. This morning I streched, went for a run [in the rain], did 10 sit-ups, cooled down and then showered. When I weighed myself it seems I’ve dropped 7lb since last week.

I haven’t been having much luck with practicing japanise though – never seem to have the time. I’m progressing quite nicely through morrowind [I know that wasn't a resolution, but I'm proud of it], and I’m considering taking up card making as a hobby [I found these really cute little charm things that are actually meant for scrapbooking, but would do perfectly.]

I’ve got a house viewing lined up for next weekend, I’m soon to be making a joint account with andy.

So, yeah. January is the month of promise. All is good, and would be sunshine and rainbows too, if January wasn’t also the month of Really Icky Weather^TM.

And for the moment, I am content.

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Thanks to Super Dru! Hurra!

I saw a nice property on RightMove.co.uk last night, closer and I think slightly cheaper than the other one, and today I arranged a viewing for next saturday. Might actually have a house to put my bed and dining table and such in. Yay!

Go me, being all grown up and shit

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Music: the White and Black Box of Jazz

Maybe people think my font size is too big… That’s why they don’t stick around. Yeah, well screw you. I don’t need you sympathy any way.
Well, not much.

Did more washing today. Joy.

I keep having these freaky dreams where I’m really breathless through out the whole night, like scarily breathless. Which makes me wonder if my inhalers aren’t working, and that the dream is reflecting reality.
The other freakish thing is I keep dreaming about having a kid. It varies in age from newborn to 5, but its defiantly mine and I kinda like the thing, with the holding and the cuddling. Sometimes I feel like I’m 19 going on 30. I really hope I’m not gonna start getting broody. That would just be wrong.

I had loads of stuff to write, and it sucks coz I can’t think of anything now. I guess that’s just how exciting my life is right now. How super sucky is that. I can’t go out coz not money, I can’t go anywhere coz no money and no transport. I feel like I need to stay home all the time to take calls for my mum, in case any of them are really important. I also leap up every time the phone goes in case its mum or Graham to say Grandma is gonna snuff it in the next 15 mins.

If I think of anything I bore you with it immediately, instead of waiting till my nightly posting time.

Ciao

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Rest In Peace Betty Sellers, Grandma
You will be missed

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