Well, it’s kinda 2.20 now, and I’m really tired. I thought I could stay up all night again, working on my top seacret project with Jade-chan, but she conked out about 30 mins ago so I can’t sleep on the sofa with her there, and I don’t want to go up to my room and disturb andy beacuse he’s ill again and tired and he’ll just be really pissy in the morning. I wish I could have a break though – I’ve been doing research since monday, and while I’m geting on with it quite well, and building up an idea of the things I want in relation to the project and building up and idea of how much this is all going to cost, I really am fucking sick of it. I hate tralling through the internet in search of stuff, and I know kitty’s aunt said that I would have moments like this where I’m sat here going, ‘why the fuck am I doing this?’ and andy said I’d have moments when I think it’s too big and I can’t get a grip on what I’m doing but well I’m having one of those moments right now and I do so wish I had someone to talk to right now, and someone to hug and who’s going to tell me everythings fine and even if I don’t belive I can do this, they do and I just want someone to tell me it’ll all be okay but there is no one up and I kinda feel really alone and stuff

… and I just wrote a whole paragraph of 4 run-on sentences. Heh, rambling much?

But I realy amd quite tired, and sick of reaserching. I’d go out for a walk if it wasn’t 2.30am and I wasn’t such a pussy afarid of the big bad muggers and rapists. I need a break though.

More tea vicar?

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Hum, yesterday was a bit bad – I was planning on going to something called the Three Oakford’s show with Dad on the bike. Well, I did go, and I stayed long enough to watch my Dad do a ride-round the ring and say his bike spiel and then get a cup of coffee, but gods, the flies where… not good. It was like being trapped in a box of flies, and I was being munched on which made it not nice, so Brian, my Dad’s mate, took me home.

Which, it turns out is a good thing. We had an impromptu ‘house meeting’ [well, more of a what has Dan done to piss us off], and then went to the Sloop, our new Local, for lunch. We were planning on then going out to see Jade and Greg in bournemouth for a picnic thing, only I… Well, I’m not sure what happened. I started feeling a little dizzy, so I went and sat down and promptly fell asleep. I woke up about an hour later, upon which Andy tells me I really don’t look well, and maybe we should cancel with Jade. I left him and Monkey doing that while I got a 7 hour kip.

When I woke up, we ate and Monkey and I watched Angle ’till midnight.

But, ugh, the flies. I couldn’t sleep very well last night – I kept waking up thinking that something was cralling on me.

But yeah, I didn’t really do much yesterday, which is a pity beacvuse is was so sunny

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