Music: Random classical
Mood: humf
Crying again,
hot tears in shadow,
hearing what you really think of me.
I thought I was liked,
thought I was respected.
I guess not then.
But I tried to put it right.
Feeling somehow it was all my fault,
all my fault.
But then,
there is no cure for stupidity.
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This was inspired by a cirtain thing a cirtain person said to me in the Spacefem chat last night. Some one I liked and respect the judgment of. I’m posting it here, becuse I’m not sure I want that cirtain person to see it, and I don’t think that person looks here, but if he does then, well, bugger. I’m almost compltly sure that any reaction to it on his part would be negative, and I don’t think I could take it. It took me about 5 minuets to respond to the cirtain thing he said to me last night, and I expect you reading this think I’m being stupid about being so concerned about what some random person from the ‘net said to me, but it hurt me quite badly and I think I’m rambling….
The thing is, had this been In Real Life, I don’t think I would feel quite so stupid at being so hurt by the comment. I’m half tempted to tell y’all what happened but I don’t really think it’s nessasary. And this post really just confirms what he though. Ok. I’m gonna shut up now, though I think I could ramble for a few more paragraphs, but I’m not cuz..I’m not.
Ciao.
☮&♥
3 comments
Comment by Anon on February 28, 2007 at 12:40
It’s hard feeling like you’re not liked and you’re not wanted, believe me I know, I’ve been there (and survived!) I’m hoping you’ll come through whatever is upsetting you so much!
Comment by Draak on February 28, 2007 at 12:41
Who said what to you and
why and
where was I?
I’ll kick their ASS!
And make them eat grass!
But seriously, thank you for leaving your link in the response you left at LJ. You are not stupid. I wish I knew what was going on. I also wish I was not so busy last night and was paying attention to the chat. It wasn’t me that made you feel this way? is it? If it was, I am sooo sorry and I didn’t mean it. I would never ever want to make you or anybody feel this way. But you said he, so I guess I am safe, but I feel really bad that I wasn’t there and that I missed it. Otherwise, if I hadn’t of missed it I would have given whoever made you feel bad a piece of my mind.
*hugs and kisses*
You aren’t stupid and whatever it was WASN’T your fault. M’kay?
I am adding your blogger to my favorites now that I know where it is. I will be reading it more often. And when you get your new site up, let me know and I will link to you from my site. *wink*
Comment by druidx on February 28, 2007 at 12:42
Oh no Draaky! It was never you. I don’t want to say who it was, becuse I don’t want to make trouble. Its ok now though….
*hugs and kisses back*
Thank you for adding me to your faves, I thought LJ users couldn’t add outside links to their faves though?
Site, yeah, yeah, it’ll be up eventually