The pain is there,
In my head, my shoulders, my legs, my body

My mouth is dry, my breathing constricted
And my heart is sealed.
I can’t feel it, can’t sense it. Is it even still there?

An automatic defence mechanism, my body’s shut down.
It can’t take the strain…can’t take the knowledge,
It’s in denial, not that I blame it… it wants to sleep…it wants to cry
I want to forget…I want to die

It hurts too much…I need a friend,
But in this black desert there is none
I can’t face it alone… I want some help

The Pain! The Pain… take it, please!
The sharp stabbing pains of failure.
I fall to the floor as the knives of hurt cut into my heart
I’m going to die…I want to die…

Please, Just kill me.

☮&♥