I feel okay after the endoscopy – tired shaky and still a little fuzzy – but okay. I won’t know until I make another appointment what the results were. I don’t really want to talk bout the proceda or what happened, all I know if I feel like a pin cushion – my left hand has been stuck at least 4 times and kinda hurts now I’m typing…
I guess that’s all I need to say…
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* Added a written works section, and an awards page
* Prettified more of the code
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Nobody loves me! Nobody ever comments on me! I’m beginning to think my counter is lying *taps the screen* Hello? Any one out there?
That said G’ma’s still hanging on in there. She seems chirpy enough, but still may go at any moment. For want of a better phrase, the suspense is killing me. I’ve turned into a little girl again.
“G’ma, G’ma I wrote a pretty story. You wanna read it? I’ll bring it in tomorrow. Please be here so I can read it you.” Stupid fucking kid. Everyone else is coping, seemingly, but every time I think about her not being here it makes me wanna break down and cry. I don’t wanna cry, I wanna be strong. Stupid, stupid me.
In other news: My calendar keeps falling of the wall, and making everything on my desk go bye-byes, I forgot that I had a tenner in my wallet when I went to buy Andy’s Christmas pressie, so I though I couldn’t buy it. When I went shopping today with dad for food, not only did I forget my cards so I could use said tenner to top my mobile credit up, I forgot to get any Dr Pepper. ICS is on hold as I can’t concentrate coz of Grandma and that the magazine I have to study, I can’t get hold of.
Rats, rats and double rats with chips on the side. [Discworld convention quote]
Gah. Night.
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* Moved the Mow to misc from the main navigation
* Added a groovy little ‘to top’ link for the pages that need it
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* Changed layout
* Changed ‘randomness’ and ‘random 2′ to ‘quiz results’ and ‘random’
* Got a bravenet guest map
* Added a trade form to qbee quilt page
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Phrase of the Moment: Oh FRELL!
Music: Foo Fighters
I am most excruciatingly bored. Just updating and adding things to my web page. I sort of wish I had a job, but then I sort of don’t. It would be nice to do something, but I’m not sure I want it to be work. Maybe I could do some kind of correspondence course, but what of?
I’m scared of paying out lots of money for something that would take a year or over to do, coz I’m scared I’m gonna quit, and waste it all. I know I should take a ‘leap of faith’ or some such thing, but faith in what? Me? Andy? Some kind of deity? Bleh.
On a slightly better note, I wrote some more for ‘thing 14′. I feel I have to wrap it up soon, but I don’t want it to end lamely. Ah hell!
‘Why is everything so confusing. Maybe I’m just out of my mind.’ – Avril Lavine
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* Uploaded links pages
* Uploaded guest book page
* Added an entry to my blog
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Music: random rock
Random quote of the moment:
I wish I had a pony,
I wish I were eighteen,
I wish I had a dime
For every kid who treats me mean.
-Lisa from ‘Moanin’ Lisa Blues’
Can’t seem to get down to anything 2 day; attention is bouncing like a rubber ball on steroids against a concrete floor and nothing to do. Gonna see Andy tomorrow, but I feel odd about it for some reason. I feel very confuzzeled and tired atm, and there seems to be no reason for it. Blah!
Nothing is real, and nothing is as it seems
I’m spending my life in a dream
[that is nothing from 'The Matrix', it's just how I feel sometimes]
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Just a twenty-something geekess from the UK.
She believes in FLOSS, choice and saving the planet, among other things.
Her Passions include writing, internet radio and long lie-ins.
