I wonder why everything always takes so long? I mean, even though I’m trying to cut down on what I read in the mornings… Gah this isn’t good. I’m all distracted. This morning I didn’t stay pout and write – I wanted to do it from home. Only thing is once I got here I put off doing this daily free write because there were other things to do – call people, send e-mail, do washing up – anything but write. I also fell into the trap again of switching on my main machine and looking at my dailies [which apparently takes 30 mins – but I've drastically cur down them now so we'll see] the moment I got home instead of sitting down to do this free write like I /told/ myself I would. and now I’m all distracted. There are so many things to think about. I wish I could let them all go sometimes and not worry about anything. and even though there is so much to worry and think about, now when I come to write down my complains I can’t think of a single thing. How predictable and irritating.
It’s nice outside though – the sun is shining for the most part, even if there is a little bit of cloud. The weather updater thingy on the desktop says that it’s 17 deg.C outside. That means before I leave again for work this afternoon, I shall change into something a little most breezy so I don’t get so hot like yesterday and get a headache. That wasn’t nice – every time I stood up or moved I got blood rush that made my head throb and make me feel sick. In the end I asked andy to go downstairs because the light was hurting my head – even through a cloth blindfold. I shall be very miffed if I get that headache again today because I’m supposed to be going out with Andy. We’re going to the cinema to see stuff, and maybe he’ll treat me to dinner too 
gods! that’s so annoying! The crap hole door keeps squeaking and I don’t know why, but it not only creeps me out because I think someone is coming up the stairs, but the suddenness jerks me out of my writing and that’s just irritating. I wonder how I can fix it? ah well, maybe I’ll leave that ’till another time. or not… Yay it’s sort of fixed now. I put scotch tap across the doors at the top to hold them closer together and so far it seems to be working at least a little better than before.
So what else can I talk about? It’s my turn to cook on Sunday – at DnD we’ve started this thing so that each week someone different cooks and brings food. The first week kat did a slightly tasteless risotto, then Greg [with my help] made beef curry [because that was all that was in the house] and so next week it’s my turn. I’m going to do my famous camp medley. I’m not sure where I got the recipe from, but it was what I cooked for my advanced camping badge at guides. I had brought the food with me, but I had to find and assemble the cooking fire myself without any help, then using the utensils provided, cook a simple filling meal. the badge also required you to be able to instruct 3 other girls in how to put up a ridge tent [that bit was a little harder since I had newbies with me] and make a washing up stand out of gadget wood [that's easy – I bet I could still do it, maybe even in my sleep]. Essentially you had to prove that you could run a camp of three other girls all by yourself, and I believe I passed with flying colours. but then, is that really surprising considering I’ve been camping for most of my life? So anyway. A camp medley, as I call it, consists of leek, mushroom, sausages, baked beans and pasta, in that order. It’s tasty filling and covers all the main food groups – carbohydrate, protein fibre and vegetables. I hope I don’t screw it up. Its been a while since I made it and the last time it kinda went wrong, but I’m expecting it’ll be fine. The only other thing is will there be enough – my judge of portions isn’t very good. But I expect it’ll be fine. Oops just said that twice. well I guess it just re-affirms what I know 
Anyway, my page is finally done, so adue
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